Construction Worker

Apologies dear reader. The ass I have been putting into this as of late is half at best. Amazing how quickly we have become so ensnared by the internet. (An hour later) I wasn't even two sentences into this when was swept away by the current. I've just now resurfaced after watching an hour of John Stewart videos. The point is, I have dozens and dozens of books at my fingertips. I have dozens of projects sitting on my desk and in my head that I haven't done. It was a beautiful day outside today, and I have a lot of good friends that live in the same apartment or next door to me. We're so afraid of not having enough time to do everything that we do nothing. Remember our imaginations? Weren't those great? Remember when we could think up, and then execute things because we didn't care. There were no consequences. And most of the things I want to do right now at this very moment have no consequences. They don't cost anything, and they would be very good things to have done. I resent the fact that my brain has changed. I resent that it isn't as plastic as it used to be. I resent the fact that real learning takes effort. I resent the fact that unless I really watch myself, I can fall effortlessly into an hour of fluff. I resent that I spend days with nothing to show or remember from them. Not that we don't need to work at things, and practice skills, and get smarter, and better, but I don't think I even accomplish that most days. What do I remember today? I remember that I got some groceries. I remember I spent a bunch of time trying to track down some old Fela Kuti records. I watched a video of an emotive robot begging not to be shut off. But so fucking what!?! It was interesting, but what the hell can I do with that? There are two things we can do with information. We can use it to make different, more complex information, or when can use it to give us an idea of how to use that information.Bricks and blueprints. I want to be a construction worker. I want to build things with my mind. So I should probably get off my fucking computer and do some of those things. See you.